Thursday, November 01, 2007
oh how I wish
I talked to my mom about it tonight for a while cause I am finding it very upsetting to still be batteling to be back to normal..very upsetting.
I spent the evening with a group of ladies and had such a nice time but all I really wanted to do was nothing. sitting sounded about my speed this evening.
I run into the mindset all the time that if you're not busy or doing something you are less. Partly why my slowing down from being low on energy has been a little hard...(I know some of you are thinking "this is her slowed down?!"...it is.) I don't like to say no to people and doing things...I am a people pleaser at times...I hate that about myself but it's something I try to combat with good choices and remembering to be a God pleaser first, Jamie pleaser second and people pleaser 3rd...
And sitting at home being content with quiet is actually something I enjoy when I finally take the time to do it...I just wish it was more out of choice than because I'm so tired all the time...and I think I would enjoy it more if I had someone to sit at home with...but all things happen in good time I suppose...for now it's just me...
this song has been stuck in my head today...it's true for me right now...I do wish I could gather together in one place all the people I care for. oh how I wish.
I know I will get to see my family soon and some others who I am eager to spend time with and that time can't come quick enough for me...I am blessed with a lot of great people in my life, some here and to many far away...
wow, I'm kind of a downer tonight...one more side effect of not feeling well and missing people I suppose.
here are a few of the lyrics..
And I wish all the people I love the most
Could gather in one place
And know each other and love each other well
And I wish we could all go camping
And lay beneath the stars
And have nothing to do and stories to tell
We'd sit around the campfire
And we'd make each other laugh remembering when
You're the first one I'm inviting
Always know that you're invited, my friend
I have a list of people I'd invite!
So Much to Love
I love people. I love bright eyes. I love my sons, Judah & Lucas. I love laughing. I love my ringtone. I love love. I love Jesus. I love tattoos. I love milk. I love creative expression. I love smiles. I love Philippians. I love bridges. I love my house and haven. I love a rainy night. I love doing nothing. I love almonds and banana chips. I love music. I love cowboy hats. I love Anna Maria Island. I love (diet) dr.pepper. I love a good story. I love wildflowers. I love to fly. I love rod iron. I love babies. I love going to the movies. I love midnight. I love allegra. I love sunsets. I love long kisses. I love the color red. I love starshollow. I love community. I love doing life with friends. I love witty banter. I love jessilynn.com. I love my family. I love pretty things. I love cruisin' with my girls. I love remembering when. I love authentic individuals. I love hot tamales. I love when kids giggle. I love Lance. I love bonfires. I love finding people I thought I'd lost. I love yard sales. I love tacobell. I love seeing people do good. I love violins and steel guitar. I love driving to the airport. I love seeing people around me succeed at their dreams. I love being included. I love flipflops. I love blogging. I love long talks. I love dreaming.