Thursday, April 26, 2007
"This is what the Lord Almighty says: "Give careful thought to your ways. Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build the house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored," says the Lord. "You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little, What you brought home, I blew away. Why?" declares the Lord Almighty. "Because of my house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with his own house. Therefore, because of you the heavens have witheld their dew and the earth its crops."
Maybe if we were all a little more concerned about honoring God and taking care of his business before our own then things would work out better.
Maybe if we stopped trying to make sure that number one was taken care of before taking care of what God has called us to and the things of God...we would have more.
I see in my own life this need for security, for my needs being met, needing to know what the next step is...all very "me" based needs and I see them causing me to worry and taking up my time and my resources too...what would happen if I stopped trying to make sure things were working out great for me and instead poured my time, energy and resourses into building God's house? I have a feeling that God would do like he promised and take care of my needs..and all the while I'd be honoring God and living the way he intended.
It's easy and hard...that whole struggle with spirit and flesh...I thank God for reminders that it's possible in the word of God.
the first time I thought I was getting a consulation about possibly having a mole removed and bam...the plastic surgeon was there with his knife and all of a sudden I was bandaged and on my merry way.
Today I thought I was getting a little biopsy and instead I again went under the knife and have big old stitches on my stomach. not cool. They should seriously mention these things! maybe they don't on purpose...I probably would have been way more nervous.
then I went to the hospital to visit my friend Anika who just had her second baby, Amelia Mae 6'6oz 19in long, born on her uncle ryan's bday (for all who know them)...it was so nice to sit and talk to her...it was a c-section so she was feeling pretty good overall...but as I was leaving I realized i didn't have any cash and I hadn't brought my check book so I was praying they took credit cards like most ramps around here do...they didn't..so they guy lectures me (blah) and I now have to mail in my 3$...this wouldn't be so annoying but every other hospital in the twin cities validates your parking if you are a pastor visiting someone...wonder why they don't? maybe I'll ask. I mean literally every hospital except fairview southdale validates...I know because I end up at them for one reason or another fairly regular...there must be a reason...and they took down my license plate number to make sure I'm not a repeat offender...lol...I'm such a felon! look out! I'm causing all kinds of trouble...beware the girl in the blue jeep wrangler...she's a wild one!
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
and for the record...I've just had 3 good days in a row...I may actually be getting better...
and I had a semi deep thought which I may share soon...further proof of my improving...I could barely keep my eyes open and thoughts focused there for a while much less have deep thoughts...
I'm going to go sleep now :-)~
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
The waiter was nice enough to bring me a drink...he was a nice fella...pretty soon everyone came and the nice waiter was put to work.
So he takes everyone's drink orders and comes back and tries to fill them...he's shouting drinks out and people are staring blankly at him like "why is he asking if I had a lemonaid? did I order a lemonaid? where am I? who is this guy?" and basically ignoring him...I'm sitting across from this girl Molly and we are dying laughing because it's actually quite comical...I decided to help him out and put on my best vendor voice and started yelling "lemonaid get your lemonaid" and people laugh at me and continue to ignore the poor guy. He puts the lemonaid down and gives up. About 10 minutes later all the drinks are passed out except the lonely lemonaid and I ask for a refill of my pepsi...a different girl (not Molly) sitting right across from me and right next to Molly, says to the waiter "uh..my lemonaid???" at which point Molly and myself bust up laughing...the waiter chuckled and went and found her lonely lemonaid and gave it to her and she looked at Molly and me and wondered why we were laughing...we didn't try to explain, just changed the subject...
I'd blog about what happened when they started bringing out the food but it was pretty much the same scenerio...
Saturday, April 21, 2007
The time of year where old guys put on shorts they bought when they weren't old and show off their white legs while sporting socks and sandles...
The time of year where teenie bopper girls decide that it's time to go to the mall, all dress alike, walk in packs and show off their shoulders, belly's, chests...bra straps...whatever!
The time of year where people put on their summer clothes from last year and realize they don't quite fit anymore but rather than buy a new outfit they just pull on it hoping it will stretch and cover their muffin tops that they are in denial they even have.
The time of year where people fake bake or jergens like crazy...people are either pasty white, bright pink, or strangely orange and sort of leathery looking.
wonder what people thought when they walked by me in the mall...probably thought "she's got crazy big hair and long legs...and looks really tired...who goes to the mall alone on a friday night?"
LOL I love people watching.
ps...there are some crazy nice strollers out there...luxury even. lucky kids.
Friday, April 20, 2007
wonder what dream land will hold for me tonight?
Thursday, April 19, 2007
well, last night I dreampt that everyone spoke giberish except me and i couldn't understand anyone...but I wasn't frustrated or anything because as everyone was doing their giberish I found it to be so entertaining that I couldn't stop laughing...
that was a great dream...
Sunday, April 15, 2007
choral sang today...I am proud to say that I still know all of the alto2 parts for "A mighty fortress" "Precious Lord" and...hold onto your hats..."Ride on King Jesus" go Ryan Seih!!! I am also proud to say that every word that came out of Larry's mouth I was also able to mimic perfectly, he has also not changed...I never thought I'd say it but in a strange way it really is nice when some things stay the same...
Thursday, April 12, 2007
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
Tuesday, April 10, 2007
anyways...I didn't realize how much time I was spending being busy until all of a sudden I wasn't busy anymore...and I am going to do my very very best not to go back to being so busy...I want more time to do things like be spontaneous or do nothing...because I think it's good for me.
What will my excuse be though? right now I just say "sorry but I have mono so I really shouldn't...." and everyone understands...do you think people will be so nice about it when I say "I'm sorry but I hate that...no" lol...well, I guess I can come up with something better to say than that...but you get the idea...
I guess when you do nothing but sleep you also don't have a lot to talk about so sorry if I haven't been to interesting lately...I have had some strange dreams but sadly they float away pretty quick after I wake up so I don't even really have that to talk about...however, if you want to know anything about Loreli or Rory Gilmore...I'm your girl...and now I'm rambling about nothing so I guess I will post this blog and if you choose to read it then that's your problelm!!!!!!! :-)~
oh yeah..and I've lost like 10 lbs this month...soon I will be bones only...yuck...but if I stay as I am now I think that would be fine by me...I finally got in the habit of going to the gym and my doctor says I can't...where was he all those years I had to fight jessi and ira off?!!! okay, now I really am done.
So Much to Love
I love people. I love bright eyes. I love my sons, Judah & Lucas. I love laughing. I love my ringtone. I love love. I love Jesus. I love tattoos. I love milk. I love creative expression. I love smiles. I love Philippians. I love bridges. I love my house and haven. I love a rainy night. I love doing nothing. I love almonds and banana chips. I love music. I love cowboy hats. I love Anna Maria Island. I love (diet) dr.pepper. I love a good story. I love wildflowers. I love to fly. I love rod iron. I love babies. I love going to the movies. I love midnight. I love allegra. I love sunsets. I love long kisses. I love the color red. I love starshollow. I love community. I love doing life with friends. I love witty banter. I love jessilynn.com. I love my family. I love pretty things. I love cruisin' with my girls. I love remembering when. I love authentic individuals. I love hot tamales. I love when kids giggle. I love Lance. I love bonfires. I love finding people I thought I'd lost. I love yard sales. I love tacobell. I love seeing people do good. I love violins and steel guitar. I love driving to the airport. I love seeing people around me succeed at their dreams. I love being included. I love flipflops. I love blogging. I love long talks. I love dreaming.