Friday, June 29, 2007
Monday, June 25, 2007
while I have been sifting and sorting I have been doing the same thing in my mind. running across items that remind me of certain times and certain people and certain moments. so glad that certain times are done with and sad that others went so quick. wondering what kinds of things I will be sifting through 10 yrs from now. what kinds of memories and moments...
Sunday, June 24, 2007
I don't know at what point I realized what depth measurements were at the pool...I wonder when he will...
I do remember the day I realized what a second was and what a minute was...I can remember what the room looked like and we were playing hide and seek and I had such an "Aha" moment when I finally got it. It finally made sense why my mom got mad at me for taking to long..."you have 2 seconds young lady or else" I really thought I had longer..."It's only 5 minutes until we leave"...seemed to take an eternity...
I have had other "Aha" moments since then but when we were at the pool this is the one I was reminded of...there are some things I've had "Aha" moments about and wished I didn't...it's sooo nice to be blissfully unaware sometimes.
Thursday, June 21, 2007
I googled it today...
Did you know that a parking ticket in Mpls is 34$?
I did not google that one...
Did you know that there really is nothing as great as being with friends even if it's just for a few hours every few years?
I did not google that one either :)
Did you know today is the longest day of the year (daylight wise)?
I can't remember how I found that one out...I think from a friends blog...
hmm...wonder what else I'll learn today...feel free to share something interesting if you comment on my blog...I'd love to learn more interesting random useless trivia...it makes me happy...
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
I was just sitting and reading in my bed when I noticed what I thought was a moving shadow on the side of my book...strange as there was nothing to cast a shadow...I turned the book a little to see a little better and a HUGE nasty spider was crawling up the book...that meant it had climbed up my bed, up my body, up my arm and finally up my book before I noticed....I am completely grossed out right now. And of course I didn't have a good response, I chucked the book...I'm sure not killing itsy but instead freeing him to roam about my bedroom freely...boo....
Ever heard that we swallow spiders in our sleep? something like 10 or 20 a year? I always hoped I was the exception...but itsy seemed quite comfy in my bed...blah...
Sunday, June 17, 2007
I want to break the cycle. I want to only speak truth and I don't ever want something I say to cause someone to think that they "can't". I want to see adults walking around with out masks on being who God created them to be with out the pain of overcoming years wasted...hopefully those kids at kids camp will have learned what it is to hear the voice of God and when all the other voices come their way, I pray that it is the voice of God that they focus on...
Tuesday, June 12, 2007
I realize this is not a revelation. I have camped before...this is my 7th yr here at kids camp...but I always forget about the bugs..blah...
I was greeted this morning by Charlotte's cousin, Max. He found his way to the inside of my sunglasses...I thought it was a smudge and took my shades off to clean them only to realize that Max had decided to park his little spidey self on my face...well...sort of my face...close enough I say. I didn't freak out and I didn't kill Max either. I merely said "Salutations" and set my glasses on the floor and watched him crawl off to do whatever it is that spiders do. Ick.
I am sure this won't be the first or last buggy moment I will have.
Camp is fun even with the bugs. The kids are all jazzed to be here today and the energy is fun to be around.
I am the waterfront coordinator this week...which is funny since I don't really swim and lakes gross me out. But really, all you need to be is bossy to coordinate just about anything and I have the corner on the market! Hopefully I'll walk away a little tanner than when I started and the kids will be safe and have a blast. Let the good times roll!
okay...sleep is calling...I must answer...
Saturday, June 09, 2007
I was helping run a kids camp counselor training meeting and someone asked a question and I answered the same time PD answered and there was someone between us who said "wow, that was in stereo!". And the like 15 people there under the age of 20 looked blankly at us...we asked if any of them knew what it meant for something to be in "stereo"...more blank stares...one kid raised his hand "ooo, ooo, I think it means there's two speakers!" he was so proud. I guess the thing to say now is "that was so 5.1" whatever that means!!!!!!!
I'm going to go get myself an early bird dinner and find some friends to go play bingo with.
(on a completely unrelated note...I fit my little tush into a size 8 when I was shopping with my sister...a perk of mono...losing way to much weight...of course I'd never buy a size 8 anything because it was probably a passing moment...one I shall think of fondly for many years to come I'm sure..lol..)
Thursday, June 07, 2007
Pre mono I was plagued by a feeling of being alone and feeling stifled but I didn't know why..I never stopped to take the time to figure it out...but of course God in his fatherly way let my actions play themselves out in natural consequence. A completely worn down Jamie somehow comes in contact with the virus mono and has not the ability to fight it off and winds up wildly ill. Now I had the time.
And in my many hours of just being I realized a few things about myself. I realized that I had let my life become so busy that there was no depth to any thing I was doing. I was surrounded by people but had no real friendships. I was beyond busy and felt useless. I had blurred the lines between work and the rest of my life and never felt like I was ever resting.
I decided a few things in that time. I decided that I was going to do my best to not be so busy that I didn't stop on a regular basis and truly talk to the people in my life. I decided that rather than waiting for people to try to get to know me more I was going to volunteer information about myself (novel concept...I know) and really listen when people spoke. I took some real steps at setting better boundries for keeping work at work and home at home. I have (mostly) been taking my days off off (novel concept...I know). I have been learning how to ask for help. Not something that comes natural to this very independant woman you see before you. Even when I desperately need it. Gosh...pride is just foolish but it creeps in to so many areas of my life.
I have already begun to see good things coming from sticking by these choices. I have felt more myself, I have seen people react to me differently (in a good way), I feel like I am connecting more with people who I have always enjoyed in the past...but on a deeper level. It is a process but one that I am thankful I can engage in now that I am more aware of where I was and where I need to be.
I literally slept for almost two months but I feel like I am awakening from something that started way before that...it's a good feeling.
Monday, June 04, 2007
ask if they get in trouble for mixing up people's medical records...it would have to be someone else as I wouldn't be pregnant.
2. Do you trust all of your friends?
I have some of the best friends and I can honestly say that I do. I also have some new friends that I haven't built trust with yet...I do not blindly trust...but I do assume the best until proven otherwise.
3. Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
4. Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
yes, but maybe not the way this question implies...I think there are a lot of natural consequences to behavior..and some of the crappy stuff people deal with the reason they are dealing with it has to do with their choices. I also think that sometimes bad things happen to good people because that's life. not everything has a mind blowing "reason". that being said I think that God uses even the worst of situations we deal with to bring about good things if we let Him lead us.
5. Name two things you would NOT tolerate in a relationship.
abuse and cheating
6. Which one of your friends do you think would make the best doctor?
probably Anika...she's calm and very caring of others needs
7. When was the last time you snuck out?
I snuck out of work and went to starbucks last week...does that count? does it matter since no one cares if I go anyways? just more fun if you leave with out telling where you're going...
8. Are you afraid of falling in love?
a little but more afraid of not...the risk is worth the reward
9. Is there someone who pops into your mind at random times?
a few friends I've lost track of over the years
10. Would you stop talking to your friends because you hooked up with a new person?
no way...my girls are my girls...no man will ever be my girls so it is to his benefit that I keep talking to them :-)
11. When was the last time you flew in a plane?
on my 30th golden birthday in Dec when I got to go to St.Louis and meet my brand new niece..sweet.
12. What did the last text message you sent say?
lol...of course! to my little ana
13. What features do you find most attractive in the opposite sex?
confidence...how he carries himself....and eye contact
14. Fill in the blank...... I like...
eating! a lot :)
15. What are your goals in life?
To make good decisions always, and to honor God in all that I do.
16. What color eyes do you have?
hazel and sometimes green
17. When you get married, how would you envision your dream wedding?
on the beach baby! very few people.
18. If you could say just one thing for the rest of your life, what would it be?
I'd sing it and it would be "Amazing Grace"
19. If you were to wake up from being in a coma for an extended period of time, name some people you would call?
the nurse first...lol...and once I knew who was still alive and all that I'd call Jess, Ira, Mike, rents, H&K probably a few others...if I had to know their phone numbers I'd never call anyone...my cell has ruined me.
20. How many kids do you want to have?
a couple...not to many...
21. Would you make a good parent?
I hope so...no one's perfect though so I'm sure I'll mess my kids up a little..it's what parents do :-)~ they'll at least know I did my best.
22. Where was your default pic taken?
23. What is your middle name?
24. What was the last concert you went to?
I think it was a sara groves concert...hmmm...can't remember
25.Does someone like you?
I think so! at least one person must right? mom?! lol
26.Do you want to get married?
27. Honestly, what’s on your mind right now??
listening to my sister sing...I like her...she's got talent folks!
28. Are you musical?
that would be a yes.
29. If you could go back in time and change something, what would you change?
I would have wripped the stinkin' bandaid off!
30. Shoe size:
11....tall girl big feet :)
31. What are you wearing right now?
khaki pants and white shirt...I look like a gap add
32. Righty or lefty:
33. Can you make a dollar in change right now?
sorry, I only carry 50's! haha! I wish!
34. Best place to go for a date:
anywhere you can talk and interact a little
35. Favorite jeans:
anything from the buckle that's long enough for these legs!
36. Favorite pizza:
just add green olives and I like any of it really
37. Favorite animal:
horse? they are pretty...not really an animal lover
38. Favorite month:
October-love the fall time and pumpkins and apple pie and crisp weather...
39. Favorite juice:
40. Have you had the chicken pox?:
41. Have you had a sore throat?:
42. Have you had plastic surgery?:
43. Who knows you the best?
there are plenty of people who have me figured out...I'm not really a mystery...some people I have more history with.
44 Do you get along with your family?:
we love and fight hard...it's all good at the end of the day
45 Do you wear contact lenses or glasses?
46. Ever been in a fight with your pet?
47. Been to Mexico?:
cancun with Ira, Ash and Jess...fun fun fun in the sun!
48. Been to Canada?
yes...I saw Phantom of the Opera in the Toronto theatre...amazing!
49. Did you buy something today?
stuff to make nametags from Michaels
50. Did you get sick today?
I could have, I ate WAY to much!!!!
51.Do you love someone?
my heart is full
52. Do you miss someone today?:
oh yes, like crazy
53. Did you get in a fight with someone today?:
I'm a lover not a fighter :-)~
54. Did you go to work today?
worked my tail off! it was a fun day.
55. Did you cry today?
56. Last person to see you cry?
a lady I prayed with a couple weeks ago...
57. Who made you cry?
myself, sometimes there's so much going on inside of me and tears are the only way to work through it all...
58. What was the last TV show you watched?:
59. Do you have a crush?
60. What are your plans for the weekend?:
well...this weekend is over in like 40 minutes...next weekend I am having breakfast with Beth at her new house and then I leave on Sunday for a week of kids camp...good times!
Sunday, June 03, 2007
Made me want to eat skittles.
So Much to Love
I love people. I love bright eyes. I love my sons, Judah & Lucas. I love laughing. I love my ringtone. I love love. I love Jesus. I love tattoos. I love milk. I love creative expression. I love smiles. I love Philippians. I love bridges. I love my house and haven. I love a rainy night. I love doing nothing. I love almonds and banana chips. I love music. I love cowboy hats. I love Anna Maria Island. I love (diet) dr.pepper. I love a good story. I love wildflowers. I love to fly. I love rod iron. I love babies. I love going to the movies. I love midnight. I love allegra. I love sunsets. I love long kisses. I love the color red. I love starshollow. I love community. I love doing life with friends. I love witty banter. I love jessilynn.com. I love my family. I love pretty things. I love cruisin' with my girls. I love remembering when. I love authentic individuals. I love hot tamales. I love when kids giggle. I love Lance. I love bonfires. I love finding people I thought I'd lost. I love yard sales. I love tacobell. I love seeing people do good. I love violins and steel guitar. I love driving to the airport. I love seeing people around me succeed at their dreams. I love being included. I love flipflops. I love blogging. I love long talks. I love dreaming.