Thursday, May 08, 2008
and so. I got good at putting things on snapfish pretty much with in a day of loading things onto my computer. but in true murphey's law fashion, with the business of my last month I got out of the habit. I was going to bring my computer into work yesterday to hook into high speed internet (I had made a couple attempts to load pics from home but the connection kept failing cause it was to slow.) and as my horribly bad luck would have it, the night before my computer went on the fritz.
holding my breath that it was just a glitch.
went to the genius bar and they thought it was prabably an operating systems problem so we got a new system..it didn't help.
and now my poor computer is getting a heart transplant. not sure if anything can be recovered.
I sat at the genius bar and I cried.
I felt silly.
But it wasn't just losing all the picture from my wedding showers and the videos and my engagement photo's... that of course was enough to make me cry but it was the familar wave of having gone through this recently that made me cry right there instead of waiting until I got into my car. the grief of losing something I treasured....and re-losing all the things I had recovered...being mad at myself for not doing a better job of getting my pictures onto snapfish in a more timely fashion. Knowing that there will be more waves as I remember more things I lost.
I may have cried in vain. it could all be recovered. I am crossing my fingers. but there are days when you just know things aren't going your way. that's more how this feels. I hope I'm wrong.
So Much to Love
I love people. I love bright eyes. I love my sons, Judah & Lucas. I love laughing. I love my ringtone. I love love. I love Jesus. I love tattoos. I love milk. I love creative expression. I love smiles. I love Philippians. I love bridges. I love my house and haven. I love a rainy night. I love doing nothing. I love almonds and banana chips. I love music. I love cowboy hats. I love Anna Maria Island. I love (diet) dr.pepper. I love a good story. I love wildflowers. I love to fly. I love rod iron. I love babies. I love going to the movies. I love midnight. I love allegra. I love sunsets. I love long kisses. I love the color red. I love starshollow. I love community. I love doing life with friends. I love witty banter. I love jessilynn.com. I love my family. I love pretty things. I love cruisin' with my girls. I love remembering when. I love authentic individuals. I love hot tamales. I love when kids giggle. I love Lance. I love bonfires. I love finding people I thought I'd lost. I love yard sales. I love tacobell. I love seeing people do good. I love violins and steel guitar. I love driving to the airport. I love seeing people around me succeed at their dreams. I love being included. I love flipflops. I love blogging. I love long talks. I love dreaming.