Monday, June 23, 2008
I remember trying a couple churches and just decided to commit to one. I went to this small church in st. louis park. I went with a roommate. The first week she got invited home to lunch by a family. They didn't invite me. I took the van back and ate cafeteria lunch. The next week it happened again. And again. I would be standing right by her and she would get invited to lunch and they wouldn't invite me. It was like I was invisible. Well I do not like the feeling of being invisible so I decided to move on.
I had a friend who wanted to be a kids pastor and he convinced me that the church he was going to was a good one, it was a big ol' church. I went with him a couple times and while no one invited me home for lunch, if they invited him they would invite me too. Before long I was volunteering and investing.
In college I was a music major. And I hated it. So much. I love music but I hated everything about being a music major. I knew it wasn't something I could continue with. And in that special way God works He started bringing to mind all the involvement I have had in my life with kids. I weighed it against the kids ministry I was seeing each week...I really didn't know if it was something I wanted to do but there was something about it that compelled me to change my major.
I continued to get rides from my friend for a few years. The year he graduated and left college I got a truck and was able to get myself to church.
I was finally being invited to lunch on my own. I was a part of this community in a way that was healthy. It was while I was at one of those lunches that the kids pastor at the time (Dick Gruber aka PG) asked me if I would consider an internship. I knew it was the right thing to do so it didn't take much thought or prayer.
That summer was pivotal. My first day was actually Lisa Groves last day, we went to Fudruckers for lunch and that was the official start to my journey of working at CVC.
Well as fate (aka God) would have it, PG was gone the entire summer. My big dreams of learning from one of the best kids pastors in the nation were not going how I planned. Instead I was the right hand of the person who did early childhood (Ruthanne). Through that internship and through the next year of college I discovered my love for early childhood ministry.
I prayed that God would give me a job just like Ruthanne's. I really didn't mean literally her job but apparently that is what God had in store for me.
The last 8 yrs I have worked and poured my heart out into this church and community. I have felt at peace and at home the entire time I have been here.
Last week I spent my favorite week of the year at Kids Camp. My friend who drove me to church for 3 yrs was the camp speaker. He's married and has a daughter and now he's working on the national level for kids ministries. We had a lot of laughs over time spent together way back when. It did not escape me that there was an aspect of things coming full circle with this reunion of sorts.
I think I forgot to say in my earlier blog...my good bye lunch was also at Fudruckers. My first and last meal :) Again an aspect of full circle.
It might seem a little strange but I do feel like there have been some nice bows tied here at the end of my journey at CVC. It is a good thing.
And apparently I needed to tell my story again. For me. Take what you need from it but this one was for me.
smiling and looking ahead
So Much to Love
I love people. I love bright eyes. I love my sons, Judah & Lucas. I love laughing. I love my ringtone. I love love. I love Jesus. I love tattoos. I love milk. I love creative expression. I love smiles. I love Philippians. I love bridges. I love my house and haven. I love a rainy night. I love doing nothing. I love almonds and banana chips. I love music. I love cowboy hats. I love Anna Maria Island. I love (diet) dr.pepper. I love a good story. I love wildflowers. I love to fly. I love rod iron. I love babies. I love going to the movies. I love midnight. I love allegra. I love sunsets. I love long kisses. I love the color red. I love starshollow. I love community. I love doing life with friends. I love witty banter. I love jessilynn.com. I love my family. I love pretty things. I love cruisin' with my girls. I love remembering when. I love authentic individuals. I love hot tamales. I love when kids giggle. I love Lance. I love bonfires. I love finding people I thought I'd lost. I love yard sales. I love tacobell. I love seeing people do good. I love violins and steel guitar. I love driving to the airport. I love seeing people around me succeed at their dreams. I love being included. I love flipflops. I love blogging. I love long talks. I love dreaming.