fog

so I am coming out of a fog. part of it was drug induced. I found out that one of the meds I was taking was causing me to be incredibly anxiety filled. I stopped taking it last night. I woke up in the night and had the thought "i'm going to be myself again" and I was so happy. I could feel it leaving my system. I was also in a fog from all the puking and sickness. I couldn't do anything. Jessi had to take care of me, Lance had the full weight of our life and marriage on his plate. It was not a good thing but honestly I don't know how I could have handled it different. It was just so intense. I am prayerful that that is all over now too. This is week 17 and things are looking better all the time.

I am so thankful for a wonderful husband who has shouldered so much. to much really and done it way better than I could have.

I am so thankful for friends who didn't quit on me just because I got self centered to stay alive.

I am so thankful for a sister who has done more for me in this short time than I will ever be able to repay.

I am so thankful to be here where I am right now. It isn't easy but I know it is the right place to be.

I am so thankful that the fog is finally lifting.

I hope to write more and have more fun stories to tell. I have been letting lance tell them all because I haven't had the energy. But I hope to get back to doing that as well.

I will start by saying I had a great job interview today to nanny for a family's 8month old baby in a music store only 5 blocks from my house, totally in walking distance. I will update everyone as to whether or not they hire me. I will know sometime tomorrow. It is the first thing I have been excited about in a long time.

thankful is what I am.