Sunday, November 02, 2008
following a call
Now here I am about to start a job that pays enough but very little really but I feel at peace. Why I feel at peace I don't know...maybe it is a stepping stone God has for me and maybe it's a place of learning to trust God for things I can't provide myself, and maybe it's a way for me to connect and grow and flourish in a new setting where I have been struggling....those are only a few of my guesses right now...it could be something totally different. One thing I know though is that sometime when God calls you to do ministry even to just one family and you are obedient...people doubt you and think you are being stupid. But I can't deny that this is the path God has set before me, I know my saviors voice and I know that he guides my steps and I know what it's like to ignore his call and go down a path that leads to complete unrest. I will live with some thinking I am being stupid because ultimately it is my heavenly father I answer to. In the other situations I can only do what I can do. I am at peace and I know how easy it is to doubt but I have not felt this sure about God's leading in a while so I must go with it. The fruits of this next endeavor may not be financial but I have a feeling they will be priceless.
So Much to Love
I love people. I love bright eyes. I love my sons, Judah & Lucas. I love laughing. I love my ringtone. I love love. I love Jesus. I love tattoos. I love milk. I love creative expression. I love smiles. I love Philippians. I love bridges. I love my house and haven. I love a rainy night. I love doing nothing. I love almonds and banana chips. I love music. I love cowboy hats. I love Anna Maria Island. I love (diet) dr.pepper. I love a good story. I love wildflowers. I love to fly. I love rod iron. I love babies. I love going to the movies. I love midnight. I love allegra. I love sunsets. I love long kisses. I love the color red. I love starshollow. I love community. I love doing life with friends. I love witty banter. I love jessilynn.com. I love my family. I love pretty things. I love cruisin' with my girls. I love remembering when. I love authentic individuals. I love hot tamales. I love when kids giggle. I love Lance. I love bonfires. I love finding people I thought I'd lost. I love yard sales. I love tacobell. I love seeing people do good. I love violins and steel guitar. I love driving to the airport. I love seeing people around me succeed at their dreams. I love being included. I love flipflops. I love blogging. I love long talks. I love dreaming.