Tuesday, October 28, 2008

I miss having lots of activity around me. I am wearing on Lance I think. It is hard to be this idle in a city where i know so few of people. but this is my lot for now. I will continue to try to be interesting and interested even though I feel restless. I wish my allergies weren't so bothersome. and they are. my ears pop in and out and hearing things comes and goes. I plan to talk to my doc all about it on friday. I really need my meds or I'm going to go a little bit crazy. truly it is one of the last things I am frustrated by with all the illness. I am feeling a ton better actually. now to get a handle on these allergies! one thing about MN winter is that I was not plagued by the allergies for months on end and that is a blessing if you have bad allergies at all. I never complained about the weather there, I actually liked it. this will be a mild allergy filled winter. I guess it will have it's perks too, I hope!

gotta go do nothing. later!

Saturday, October 25, 2008

first full day at home. it went good. even went to see a movie with my hot hubby. I feel very lethargic and am hoping it passes as my body recovers. it is not a feeling i am enjoying. I was worried it was something besides tiredness and don't want to end up in a bad place mentally. but I am taking hope that it is just something that will pass with rest and routine.

my allergies are really bothering me. it's like I can't hear anything normal and my own voice is gonging in my head. not a good feeling I have doubled up on allergy meds in hopes of shaking the way it is feeling.

lots for folks to pray about for me if you think of it. I really need God's help through this hard time in my life and in this pregnancy.

I am thankful for a great husband who is seeing me through all of this and for a wonderful sister who has done so much as well. she left today to go back to GA. she will probably come back some time though to help me some more. I am thankful for her. Her car was broken into while she was here which I feel terrible for her. but these things happen. hopefully they won't happen to her again. she has been a saint.

Friday, October 24, 2008

no transfusion. but I got to go home. I'm writing this from my couch. keep praying though :)

Thursday, October 23, 2008

so I am waiting to find out if I need a blood transfusion. so my blood is severely anemic and normal blood levels is 30, mine was 22, they usually do transfusions for under 25. They are waiting to hear from my blood doctor about if anything has changed since the last time they tested. so that's the waiting for now. maybe tomorrow I might get to go home. assuming no transfusion. with one I'm not sure.

so keep praying for me.


Wednesday, October 22, 2008

so this morning i was informed by the doc that i'll probably be here a "couple more days". I cried. talked to lance and my mom. I knew I was sick but man. days? sigh. okay. I'll be here, it will probably be good. I know it will be good for me. I am glad to be getting better. way less fevers. still have some issues but better than monday when I barely walked in.

I got flowers today from Maura (yay) from my mom and dad (yay) and from Heather and the Groves (yay). They are lovely and I am enjoying them. I am blessed.

I've had more visitors too and that was of course nice. just glad to see the time go by.

thanks for all the well wishes and prayers.

Tuesday, October 21, 2008


so yeah. I also have ecoli. dumb dumb dumb dumb, dumb! sing it with me now...

not sure when I'll ever get to leave this place, but really....I kind of like it here. other people take care of me, they give me magic drugs, I order room service and get yummy food...what's not to like? besides the obvious I mean :)

I am also realizing how strange it is going to be to have a tummy. I mean. I have never had a tummy....maybe a little extra layer but never a tummy. and now it has begun. I feel like I need to suck in but that's really futile.

I met the tennessee titans today, well two of them. I don't know who they were but if you read my husbands blog he posted a pic and who they are. I am so not sporty. but it was fun.

I'm missing the sara groves concert right now but there is a chance she and heather will visit tomorrow (oh my horrid looking hair) which would be a nice treat. i like them both so much.

I had a lovely chaplain lady stop in and pray for me today too, she was soooo sweet and full of Jesus.

Tom Tindale from church here in nash also visited, he was fun. Filled me in on what I was missing this week with the staff outting, sounds like it was fun.

this is my interesting life! gonna go try to eat something now I guess :)

Baptist Hospital

well. I finally know what it's like to spend the night at hospital hotel. Room 6601 if you want to swing by for a visit :) haha.
I was admitted yesterday and will be here till tomorrow for sure and maybe longer. Turned out I had a kidney infection and severe dehydration. It is nice to be here and have others taking care of me. I was so weak when I came in. They said I was "dry as a bone". So IV's endless IV's.
I am sad I will miss the sara groves concert tonight but I am happy to be alive! My sister is coming to town for the concert, her and lance will go with out me. It is a blessing though that she is here in town because Lance will have to go back to work and she'll be able to drive me home and entertain me. haha. little does she know!
well, that's about it for an update. I think that this hospital here is a great place to be, they are very efficient and my baby doctor comes to see me too. I am in good hands.
And if you read this and happen to pray, I would appreciate it of course.

Friday, October 17, 2008

feeling a little better today. not 100% but at least i'm up and around. left my cell phone at work yesterday and finally went back and got it this afternoon. proceeded to get lost and then unlost and home again. adventures in jamie land. not to terribly interesting but there ya have it folks!

looking forward to another fun weekend with lance at the hotel for his overnight. I dreamt about the pool. glorious.
as if I wasn't uncomfortable enough I hurt my back on the right side throwing up. and man it hurts. then I got stuck in traffic for 40 minutes stop and go and it just made my back worse. trying not to move much but that's pretty much boring. I left my cell phone at work so I need to go back today to get it. not looking forward to driving again. I need to chop my nails off cause it is making typing hard to do. random I know.
I am meeting lance at the hotel again tonight and have a pool waiting for me which I am happy about. so something to look forward to is great.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

sometimes I want to quit. I said it out loud today. I quit. I quit all this misery and sickness. of course saying it doesn't make it happen, i'm still miserable and sick. I really thought I was on the upswing. I had several good days...but now it feels just like it did at first. horrid. I guess this is my life. no quitting allowed.

Monday, October 13, 2008

I had a chance to meet up with Heather Foxy tonight (that's what I like to call her). She is traveling with Sara Groves and doing road manager type things and nanny type things and probably other random type things. We picked her up from the hotel/tour bus where she was staying and then went for dinner. It was nice to see Sara and her boys for a few minutes too, Sara and I have shared some personal important moments over the years and while she isn't an every day friend of mine she is a friend when I need one and likewise. So seeing her and her kids was a treat. Of course catching up with Heather was wonderful. She was always someone I liked and enjoyed seeing her grow up. (I sound old don't I?) she's about 11 years younger than me and I met her when she was in grade school, and got to know her through out high school and beyond. She was a magnificent preschool teacher and I never had to worry she would show up or do a good job. Anyhow, she is a lovely young woman and it was fun to sit and tell stories and catch up. It was nice to see some familiar faces for sure. Now I am tuckered out and must sleep. Pregnancy fatigue is intense, if I fight it, I lose.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

We had our church picnic today. I had called a friend of mine and her church was having theirs too. It was a good day in the south to have a picnic I guess. In MN the last possible picnic dates seemed to be early Sept. because of the fall brisk weather, it is fun for bonfires more than picnics :)
I was pretty nervous attending. Large crowds of people I don't know and am expected to make small talk with can tire me out pretty quick. Of course we met some lovely people and had a nice time but I was still pretty tired when it was all done. I tend towards being an introvert. My energy is gathered being alone or with one or two close friends, crowds drain me.
I have several friends who are the opposite, they could go to gatherings all day long and more in the evening and they feel energized from being around people and give them a new person and they can barely contain their giddiness. They usually find me to be an anomaly and ask me a lot of questions about why I am the way I am. It's hard to explain and I don't really understand them but what I do know is that everyone is different and that is okay. I force myself to put a smile on and go to things like this and rarely regret it, they aren't bad, just need some quiet time after to get back to good :)

Saturday, October 11, 2008

I joined Lance for a Nashville Overnight at a local hotel and had the nicest time. The swimming pool was just the perfect temp and it was such a relaxed visit. Of course I had my nightly sick blues but the morning was wonderful. I enjoy being with my husband. He's lovable and easy to just be with. We're going to do it again next week :) something to look forward to.

Friday, October 10, 2008

grocery shopping when the thought of most foods is still sickening and a lot of the things I used to like I have throw up and really need some space from...well, it's just not fun and not easy. Tonight's trip started with me needing to eat immediately or I was going to have to find a receptacle to heave into. So I found a pre made sandwich wrap thingy in the deli area to munch on as I made my way through the store. I really didn't buy much. I just have no idea what i'll be able to eat and it's not good to throw food out so I guess a small grocery trip isn't so bad.

I did talk to my mom for a while tonight and a girlfriend who is getting married next year who I have not caught up with nearly enough lately. So a little outside communication was a good thing too.
well, I have lived in many places over the years and unfortunately I have had mice. I have killed the little buggers with all kinds of traps and know what I can handle. Sticky traps are not one I can handle. I tried them once in college. caught a mouse and had to call every guy I knew until I found one who was around and willing to come get it out of my house. I never used a sticky trap again. I've done all styles of traps and poison. Eventually they all die.
Here in Nash we have Orkin cause bugs are a big deal I guess...well, they also help you catch mice...with sticky traps...they are all over my house. i told lance that if we catch one while he's gone I could not deal with it. I know my limits. He arranged for a friend I could call if needed. Well. I made the call.
Yucky little dead mouse stuck to the trap and not dead yet. I could just puke. And these days, it doesn't take much.
hopefully it's the last mouse we'll catch. unless they are getting in somehow we haven't figured and orkin hasn't figured. I am praying it's the last. I don't do sticky traps.

not the nicest thing to blog about but it's keeping me rather trapped in the living room right now cause I can't stand going into the kitchen, hopefully the help will arrive soon and it will be a memory.


it's dead and gone. glory. thank heaven for nice neighbors who grew up on ranches.

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

every day is different. sunday was half way the best day I've had but ended just miserably leading into a horrid monday. I'm not sure what to expect today.

we've done some fun stuff lately but the tired factor keeps me from blogging a lot. you can always read my husbands blog right now, he's doing a much better job at keeping the information highway buzzing with things we are doing. he's even been updating my facebook status.

it was fun to hear the baby heart beat. i dang well better have a healthy kid after everything it's putting me through. I finally got a prescription for hear burn meds and our insurance didn't cover it, I could have cried. I'm sure it will cover something else and in the end it will work out but i was sad it didn't happen when I thought. the heart burn is miserable and I think probably half the cause of my troubles.

well, enough about me. leave a comment and tell me how you are all doing!

Saturday, October 04, 2008

well. I'm bored. I did laundry, i did dishes, i decorated the house for fall, i watched tv, i listened to music, i played solitaire, i ate, i watched tv online, i put away papers, ug ug ug. I guess I'm feeling a little better. it's an odd mix of a little bit of energy but not enough to do much that really matters. lance comes home soon and I want him to entertain me. he can sing, dance, jump around, breathe, whatever he does will be more interesting than this pure boredom I have landed on today.

one thing I have little experience with is boredom. I can usually find something to do. but I guess when it's a new city and no friends really to speak of this is what I get. even if I had friends I'd probably bore them right now with all this talk of puking and no energy to walk across the room. maybe i can get lance to take me somewhere today. a movie? a book store? a park? I really don't care as long as I don't have to wear make up. I'm not that bored.

Friday, October 03, 2008

I've had a couple good days this week and a really bad one too, I guess this is just my life. My dreams have been crazy vivid though. Last night it was baked beans and sparklers. I don't know why. I almost had to get up and eat at 3 in the morning though cause the dreams about food were so vivid. Then I went back to sleep and I was asian. So whatever. I don't think they mean anything much other than I have an over active imagination.
I went to the grocery store today by myself. I didn't pass out and I didn't puke so I consider it a success. It's almost 4 now and I am a little bored. so I decided to blog and bore everyone else with me :) I'll go now.


So Much to Love

I love people. I love bright eyes. I love my sons, Judah & Lucas. I love laughing. I love my ringtone. I love love. I love Jesus. I love tattoos. I love milk. I love creative expression. I love smiles. I love Philippians. I love bridges. I love my house and haven. I love a rainy night. I love doing nothing. I love almonds and banana chips. I love music. I love cowboy hats. I love Anna Maria Island. I love (diet) dr.pepper. I love a good story. I love wildflowers. I love to fly. I love rod iron. I love babies. I love going to the movies. I love midnight. I love allegra. I love sunsets. I love long kisses. I love the color red. I love starshollow. I love community. I love doing life with friends. I love witty banter. I love jessilynn.com. I love my family. I love pretty things. I love cruisin' with my girls. I love remembering when. I love authentic individuals. I love hot tamales. I love when kids giggle. I love Lance. I love bonfires. I love finding people I thought I'd lost. I love yard sales. I love tacobell. I love seeing people do good. I love violins and steel guitar. I love driving to the airport. I love seeing people around me succeed at their dreams. I love being included. I love flipflops. I love blogging. I love long talks. I love dreaming.

Always On My Mind

Welcome to my blog.  I am glad you stopped by!  I choose to write my thoughts and share the joys of my life in this forum.  I hope you will read and say hi when you can!  Blessings!
Fame is a vapor, popularity an accident, and riches take wing. Only one thing endures and that is character. 
~Horace Greeley