Sunday, November 30, 2008
I love Lance and everyone who knows him loves him too :) I know my family sure does.
Thursday, November 27, 2008
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
and that is the end of this strange dream blog :)
Friday, November 21, 2008
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Thursday, November 20, 2008
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
I had lunch today with one of my NC girls fiance. He was in town for a convention and while I have met him on skype before it was the first time we were in the same room together. It was nice to get to know him a little better seeing as how he's marrying one of my all time favorite people.
I came home to find a package on my door step from my sister in law. She bought me a few delightful treats from our favorite minneapolis haunt. A lovely store called "Patina" We spent many girl outings at Patina enjoying all of its delights and both of us sorely miss it. She was visiting her sister who goes to school in mpls and got a chance to go, lucky for me :) It was a delightful treat.
And tonight is my life group. So one more social outing. I am happy to have them. I have been realizing that I spend so much time alone and being quiet that when Lance comes home it is hard for me to get back to being talkative sometimes. Which makes for a very quiet jamie. Not always a bad thing I suppose :)
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I knew when I took the job that it was a God connection and I still feel the same way. I don't plan to just disappear from their lives. It was great to connect with some more people from our neighborhood and I really do enjoy the couple and hope that their guitar store has great success.
What is next for me? I have no idea. But I did feel the baby move a ton this morning, no doubts now that this is what is jabbing at me. I have a boxer for a baby I think.
We do plan to find out if it's a boy or a girl and yes I will tell everyone and anyone who wants to know :) we find out next week. Family will find out first and then we'll spread the word :) I may not know exactly what all my future holds but I know for sure it holds a baby.
Monday, November 17, 2008
I did have a nice afternoon with my husband, he felt a lot better today. I get a kick out of watching how he works. He cleaned out his closet today. Fascinating to watch. He has his way of doing things for sure. Anyhow, I had a doc apt today and after that we did a little christmas shopping. It was nice. I feel like I'm coming down with a little head cold which is aggravating the sick feeling but at least today was a little break from only thinking about how sick i am. Of course I did have to find my way out of one of the stores quickly to get sick but really it was a great day and a great outing. Lance is back to work for the week and as usual I will miss him.
Sunday, November 16, 2008
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
So when I first found out I was pregnant I joked around (and prayed flippantly) that I'd like to have a stork deliver my baby rather than go through labor. Can you blame me? Ironically my doctor is Dr. Storck. I really thought they were kidding when I first made the appointment. But I have now spent much time with my own personal Storck and she's for real. I guess that old saying "be careful what you wish for" applies...at least I wished for something good :) For real I think God has a sense of humor and this was his funny way of answering my prayer for a stork delivery.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
I was just thinking about it today as I was on facebook and saw people gearing up for the ladies tea. Something my mom used to come to town for every year and we would do together. This year my mom is coming to Nashville to help me with a family thanksgiving gathering here in nashville. It will be different but I know it will be good, in fact I am so incredibly excited to have my family visit. It is great to have them coming to look forward to.
happy to be here, wishing I was there. the contradictions are making my head spin.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
So off to the movies I will now go! Hopefully another good nights sleep and another good day tomorrow. Fingers crossed :)
Monday, November 10, 2008
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Saturday, November 08, 2008
Oh Marta is an angel
Oh Marta is a friend
She knows just how to bless you
While you are on the mend
Ode to Julie Fuzzybottom:
I raise my glass to her
I bless her now as I pray
For she has blessed my darlin'
In her hardest day.
She may have a fuzzybottom,or
Hair that is long like a blanket
But to Jamie she's an angel
Who sent her cookies and a slanket.
Friday, November 07, 2008
One kind of cool thing about my job is that my neighbor also works for the family actually in the guitar store too, so we get a chance here and there to chat a bit. So today in our chatting we ended up deciding to have dinner with him, his wife and I tonight. Which I just got home from. They are such a nice couple and I am having fun getting to know them. It is nice to have friends. They actually moved here the same time I did so we have a lot in common with the new city and new life business.
I am starting to feel like this is home and little things like these connections are making a big deal in that process. Thank God. I know this is where I am supposed to be and so it is nice to finally start to feel settled into a community, between church and my neighborhood I think I am going to be alright.
Thursday, November 06, 2008
Wednesday, November 05, 2008
We are reading the book "The five love languages" which I am familiar with but have never actually read, I am glad to be participating with the group and Lance and I will work on the book together too even though we may not always both be at group, but it is still an opportunity for us to connect to each other and others in a unique way.
One kind of neat thing was that I met a girl who had done kids ministry for years, had a hard pregnancy and had to quit her work in kids ministry and is now a stay at home mom. I think her and I have a lot in common, we had a nice start of a conversation for sure tonight. It is nice to see how God is working things out for where I land and who I come in contact with and all of this. It is nice to not feel forgotten. Which I was starting to wonder about as I was so up to my ears in sickness for so long. Coming out on this side of things is nice.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
Lance and I are newlyweds who were thrown a bit of a curve ball in my sickness with this baby. It has been a hard time for both of us for different reasons but not such a hard time that we won't be okay and that is a nice feeling. I married him because I love him and want to live my life by his side. I am imperfect, he is imperfect but we have God on our side and a desire to be good to each other.
Anyways, one thing I was happy about today was that Lance and I voted together last week...no standing in lines for us :) we are a smart pair!
Monday, November 03, 2008
Sunday, November 02, 2008
Now here I am about to start a job that pays enough but very little really but I feel at peace. Why I feel at peace I don't know...maybe it is a stepping stone God has for me and maybe it's a place of learning to trust God for things I can't provide myself, and maybe it's a way for me to connect and grow and flourish in a new setting where I have been struggling....those are only a few of my guesses right now...it could be something totally different. One thing I know though is that sometime when God calls you to do ministry even to just one family and you are obedient...people doubt you and think you are being stupid. But I can't deny that this is the path God has set before me, I know my saviors voice and I know that he guides my steps and I know what it's like to ignore his call and go down a path that leads to complete unrest. I will live with some thinking I am being stupid because ultimately it is my heavenly father I answer to. In the other situations I can only do what I can do. I am at peace and I know how easy it is to doubt but I have not felt this sure about God's leading in a while so I must go with it. The fruits of this next endeavor may not be financial but I have a feeling they will be priceless.
however, Julie Fuzzybottom (names are changed to protect...well....yeah...more to make you laugh than a protection thing I think) has recently blessed my socks off. she is one of the most generous people I have ever known. when I worked as a kids pastor she was always donating clothing and supplies that were much needed, she donated her time and her efforts as well...and all while struggling through some sicknesses that were hard to comprehend. She truly amazes me with her generous spirit. And I have been her recent Target. I hardly know how to express how special she has made me feel.
The first thing she did was send me a little piece of MN in a box. Sweet Martha cookies are a treat that i would indulge in maybe twice a year at the most but always always at the state fair. They were fresh off the griddle and the most deliciously sinful treat you could imagine. Couple that with the .50 cent milk booth and you could make yourself sick in 20 minutes flat. Well, they are unique to MN and not something I will ever have again unless I return. Or so I thought. Sweet Martha is also what my sister and I named her Jeep once upon a time. We loved the cookies and we loved the jeep. It made sense. Well one fine day when I was sick out of my mind, my sister was visiting and I was missing MN the door bell rang and a package arrived. Wouldn't you know it...a little bit of Sweet Martha sent my way from a fellow foodie :) The enjoyment it brought me was related to my taste buds as well as my heart strings. Sadly i was to sick to eat more than a couple and to say thank you and tell the story was beyond me. But I still snapped a pic of my sis enjoying the cookies! it was appropriate that we both were there to partake :)
The second thing she did she did in Cahoots with another friend, the fabulous Tamara Riker. They ganged up on me and bought for me one of my new favorite things...yes the Slanket. They bought it for me as I was lying in a hospital bed trying to stay alive. The amount of thought and care they put in for me and i'm not even right in their direct circle of friends...well, again I was blessed beyond words. I wrap myself in my slanket (the blanket with sleeves) and I feel wrapped in love from people who know how to show care in the most loving and practical ways.
Truly, Julie has used her gift of generosity and thoughtfulness to bless me beyond words and beyond what I feel i deserve. She is someone you want on your side. A hidden treasure of a friend. I am humbled.
Saturday, November 01, 2008
it was one of those experiences that was a once in a life time moment. and lance is always so open to new things and new people. I am learning, I tend to be a lot more shy. anyhow it was a pretty neat thing and I have been meaning to tell about it literally for two months. I will see if I can find a picture of the pool.
I am so thankful for a wonderful husband who has shouldered so much. to much really and done it way better than I could have.
I am so thankful for friends who didn't quit on me just because I got self centered to stay alive.
I am so thankful for a sister who has done more for me in this short time than I will ever be able to repay.
I am so thankful to be here where I am right now. It isn't easy but I know it is the right place to be.
I am so thankful that the fog is finally lifting.
I hope to write more and have more fun stories to tell. I have been letting lance tell them all because I haven't had the energy. But I hope to get back to doing that as well.
I will start by saying I had a great job interview today to nanny for a family's 8month old baby in a music store only 5 blocks from my house, totally in walking distance. I will update everyone as to whether or not they hire me. I will know sometime tomorrow. It is the first thing I have been excited about in a long time.
thankful is what I am.
So Much to Love
I love people. I love bright eyes. I love my sons, Judah & Lucas. I love laughing. I love my ringtone. I love love. I love Jesus. I love tattoos. I love milk. I love creative expression. I love smiles. I love Philippians. I love bridges. I love my house and haven. I love a rainy night. I love doing nothing. I love almonds and banana chips. I love music. I love cowboy hats. I love Anna Maria Island. I love (diet) dr.pepper. I love a good story. I love wildflowers. I love to fly. I love rod iron. I love babies. I love going to the movies. I love midnight. I love allegra. I love sunsets. I love long kisses. I love the color red. I love starshollow. I love community. I love doing life with friends. I love witty banter. I love jessilynn.com. I love my family. I love pretty things. I love cruisin' with my girls. I love remembering when. I love authentic individuals. I love hot tamales. I love when kids giggle. I love Lance. I love bonfires. I love finding people I thought I'd lost. I love yard sales. I love tacobell. I love seeing people do good. I love violins and steel guitar. I love driving to the airport. I love seeing people around me succeed at their dreams. I love being included. I love flipflops. I love blogging. I love long talks. I love dreaming.