Thursday, October 29, 2009


"Once there was a man who asked God for a flower and a butterfly. But instead God gave him a cactus and a caterpillar. At first the man was upset, but then he decided to trust God anyway. After some time, the man went to check up on his request that he had left forgotten. To his surprise, from the thorny and ugly cactus a beautiful flower had grown. And the unsightly caterpillar had been transformed into the most beautiful butterfly. God always does what is right and good for his children."


I liked this. Thought I'd share.

Do things look ugly and hopeless right now and you feel like God has forgotten you? I am glad that God is working even when it doesn't "feel" like it.

Sunday, October 25, 2009




Pastor Jerry was my pastor for 13 yrs, my boss for 9 and my friend since the day we both discovered we love country music. He performed my wedding (on his and his wife, Kathy's anniversary) and he performed Judah's baby dedication.

We love him and his lovely wife and all that they have been to us over the years.

Saturday, October 24, 2009

"I carried a watermelon"

You know that scene in Dirty Dancing where Baby first meets Johnny and the only thing she can think to say is "I carried a watermelon" ? remember that?

I met Amy Grant today. Yup. what I said was more along the lines of "I'm buying ice cube trays". oh brother.

I pulled it together long enough to ask to get her and Judah in a photo together. I explained that the ice cube trays were for making home made baby food...she asked me if I had a food processor yet...I told her I was going to get one soon.

I of course had the camera set on video instead of picture so had to have her pose twice. lol. she was nice about it. Judah grabbed her hand and she thought it was cute...said he was a ladies man...I told her his dad was too ;-)~

Then I said it was nice to meet her and I hope she made lots of money at her yard sale...

The End

PS. I was a little giddy afterwards. I mean...I met AMY stinkin' GRANT. The voice of my childhood. Granted I mostly listened to country music but even so...she married Vince Gill...voice of my childhood...seriously!





Friday, October 23, 2009



Sometimes I just want to kiss him.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Judah Byrd Lockhart

You are the sweetest baby. You love to smile and giggle and give kisses and interact with the world around you in whatever ways you can reach it.
The day you were born I fell in love. I was to sick while I was pregnant to feel much of anything other than nauseous. But once you were in my arms...bliss. The first month was a blur of eating and sleeping. The next month was a blur of figuring out how we were going to get along. By month three you were sleeping on your belly and nursing great and then you discovered your walker. You would follow us around the house and go on little baby adventures without us to other rooms. You did not like being in one place...way to boring for you! The last three months have been so fun, watching you learn to roll over, sit up, learn your name, get your first two teeth. All of it has been wonderful.
You are joyful and trusting. I want you to keep those qualities in your life. I have a feeling you will.
You also love your daddy. Any time he is in the room your eyes follow him. If he doesn't look at you you do what you can to get his attention...and when you have his attention you revel in it. It is a joy for me as your mom to see you and your dad love each other. A dad is something everyone needs and to have one who adores you is a dream for many. You are a lucky little boy. If you grow up to be anything like him, you will be good.
You also love your mama. It is fun to watch you light up with smiles when I come near. I admit I do the silliest things to try to get you to smile often. You especially love it when I kiss your little neck and chin...that usually gets big giggles. And if I kiss on your toes you are a goner. It is cute to see you giggle when I click my tongue and then you try it too. You are especially giggly when you are tired. I love my deliriously happy manic baby about an hour before bedtime. You laugh you cry you laugh some more. So sweet.
You have a few favorite toys. It is cute to see what you like and what you don't. There is not much you don't like but you definitely like your little leap frog train...it's the only thing you don't throw off the walker when you are scooting around the house. You also love your Sophie the giraffe...she is perfect to grip and quite tasty to chew on. If something squeaks or makes music it is great to keep your attention for a long time. You have a sweet teddy bear that is perfect for when we are at church or somewhere we need to be quiet while we play.
You are a wonderful nurser...we nurse you to sleep for bedtime and naps and I love it. I could have tried a different type of BFing relationship with you but I love when you are so peaceful in my arms and then when I pick you up to lay you in your bed I melt every single time when you snuggle in. I don't ever want to lay you down but I know it is best for you so I rock you for a moment longer and then put you down and watch you sleep. I should mention that you currently sleep in your dads closet...it is a walk in closet and big enough for your pack'n play. You love it in there. It is cozy, quiet and dark. A perfect sleep environment.
I think your favorite time every night is your bath. You splash and wiggle and play with your bath toys and have a wonderful time. You don't mind getting your face wet and you just relax and have such a nice time. I think you've only cried like 4 times at your bath and considering you get one every night that is pretty great. Just the last couple weeks we have gotten rid of the "baby bath" and you are just in the tub on your own...you lay on your belly and push up with one arm while using the other arm to reach for whatever you can find. It is so cute to see your little baby buns swimming around.

on a wing and a prayer




Lance just left for work.

I always pray for his safety and his peace of mind.

Today especially.

2 Timothy 1:7 (KJV)
For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.


Tuesday, October 20, 2009

In anticipation of Day Light Savings we have been messing with Judah's schedule.

We have got him to stay up for an extra hour...so till 7:00. But instead of him sleeping in longer he gets up at the same time 7:30 (that will be 6:30 once we do DLS) and has been taking a 2 hr morning nap. Not terribly excited about getting up earlier but it is nice to have a big chunk of time in the morning to do stuff around the house.

In other news....I downloaded the new Sara Groves album. She is singing to me right now....ahhh sweet music....

Sunday, October 18, 2009

music

I love the musical "The Music Man". It was the first show I was in as a little girl...my big brother Mike was the Mayor in his high school musical and they needed kids to be extra's. I had so much fun. It is probably why I ended up doing so much theatre in high school myself eventually.

Anyhow I have been enjoying watching it...I love the music.

I haven't seen this version but it looks cute...anyone see this one?



The original is of course my favorite :)

Saturday, October 17, 2009




I hosted a play date at my house yesterday. I would post photos from it but alas...I completely forgot to grab my camera...which is just further proof of how busy and fun it was cause I rarely forget to take pictures!

There were 5 ladies, 3 babies, 3 kiddo's, 2 preggo's, 1 pot of soup, 1 amazing salad with figs (love), bread, caramel corn, butter cookies, gluten free spice bread, mickey mouse plates, baby bouncers, endless conversation, helpful hands, smiles galore, nursing babies, busy toddlers, helpful 5 yr old big brothers, stories shared, memories made.

I call that a successful play date.

Friday, October 16, 2009

My Boys



Everytime you smile at someone, it is an action of love, a gift to that person, a beautiful thing. ~Mother Teresa

Thursday, October 08, 2009

a visit

we are leaving tomorrow for a weekend in Mpls.

I am excited!

It feels like a trip "home". It is hard to explain. 13 yrs is a long time in one place as an adult. 13 yrs of friendships. 13 yrs of finding my way around a city I loved. 13 yrs of memories. Good memories far far far outweigh any bad ones I had.

I know I was there in January but honestly I feel like anything I did while I was pregnant just didn't feel normal. I wasn't normal. I am going to enjoy this trip in a completely different way.

I have a whole other blog in me about how special it will be to stand up with my husband and dedicate our son to the Lord. That is a moment I want to savor. I honestly know that I will only be a good mom by the grace of God and to publicly commit to it is a big deal in my mind. This is a mile marker for our family.

I guess I need to put baby J to sleep now and then get to packing...let the fun begin!

Wednesday, October 07, 2009



loss is hard. understatement of the year.

1 Cor 15:55 "Where, O death, is your victory? Where, O death, is your sting?"

Thinking of a dear friend today.

Tuesday, October 06, 2009

One of my good friend's dad posted a blog I thought I would share...check it out...

It's about not complaining...being thankful...good stuff...

snapshot

It is stormy outside today. Dark and rumbly. I love days like this, I just want to snuggle up and rest and feel safe in my own home.

I have had a bit of a sinus cold thiny going on so days like this are even more cozy cause I need naps to help me heal and these are the perfect nap type days in my opinion.
Baby J slept good last night, he woke up early to eat and then slept some more...plus he took his nice morning nap. I babysat a new friends little boy this morning, he was so sweet, a new 2 yr old. I told him to get into everything so I knew what I needed to baby proof :) he did. it was fun. his mom brought chinese for lunch and we gobbled some down and had a nice visit. She is expecting her third boy.
My sister is visiting for a couple days and her and her friend are upstairs making music and getting a few things ready for their next few gigs. It is nice to have music in the house.
My husband is off flying but will be home tonight and then off again in the morning. It will be a nice ending to a nice day.

I can hear the rain starting to pour down now. A few more rumbles in the distance...and the sun has hidden his face in the clouds. What a wonderful stormy day.

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