Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Love

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(my dad holding me when I was a bitty baby)

My dad worked in the oil field for years and years. One of my very earliest memories from when I was barely 2 yrs old, was sitting at the window in my house, watching my dad wave and drive away to go to work (for a few weeks at a time) and crying. Being so incredibly sad that he was leaving. I know as I got older I was more used to it, and we would sometimes even go with him to the oil rigs for a visit.

I have to say, when I found out my dad had passed away on Sunday night, I felt like that same little girl. Sitting at the window crying, watching my dad leave and knowing I couldn't go with him and how much I would miss him until I saw him again.

Yes I am happy he is no longer suffering.
Yes I know he is in heaven and no longer stuck in an earthly body that is working against him.
Yes he is no longer struggling with dementia.
Yes I am glad that the long good bye is over and he is in a better place.

But...

I will miss him.

So much.

And I am sad. I am more eager for heaven than ever before. Maybe I should be more eager for heaven just because of Jesus alone, but I love that I will also get to see my dad again and that it will be a sweet reunion.


For some reason this song just brought me a lot of comfort. Yes, it's Elvis...and it is a bit cheesy...but it's nice.



We are heading to WI tomorrow for a weekend of family time. I am glad to see my siblings and to hug on my mom during this time. As expected as it was, it's still strange that it is finally here. It was a long good bye and I am happy that I had as many chances as I did to spend time with him in the last few years. Saying good bye one last time will be bittersweet for sure.


6 comments:

Mrs. B. said...

Beautiful post. It is such a comfort to know he's in heaven and a reunion is in the future.

Love you.

Andrea said...

Jamie, I didn't know your Dad passed. Praying for you and your family. Such a sad time, but there's so much peace knowing he's with Jesus.

Beth said...

Hugs!

brandiandboys said...

so sorry to hear about the loss of your dad, jamie. praying for you and your family.

Blah Blah Blah said...

Thinking of you.

j said...

Hi,

I am so sorry to hear about your dad, but am very happy that you are feeling better.

j

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